Forgiveness

You made forgiveness a luxury
I could not afford. A weakness
I could not abide in myself.
A danger to my fragile health.
I worship a vengeful god these days,
The kind that visits plagues on children
To punish their intractable parents.
The kind that understands, approves
When I pluck your eyes from their staring sockets,
This is only what you did to me,
Nothing more. It’s only fair.
Am I a monster? Probably.
But a monster that only kills to live.
The kind of sin vengeful gods forgive.